earth day dress

made from a recycled school map without a pattern and without dignity

pleats on the sides to give it a circular, globe-like effect in the skirt

yes, i sat on africa all day

that's right - antarctica along the southern hemline!

i hate buttons, so i used snaps instead

happy earth day

forlorn

I hate it when company leaves. I know I'll see them again, but that doesn't make a difference. It's different from when I am the company, leaving. I usually have a feeling of relief and completion, but when I'm hosting a guest I never want them to go. That's not to say that I want to cook for them, clean up after them and entertain them the entire time there are here. In fact, I would be just as happy with the knowledge that they are somewhere near without actually interacting at all. Like in my basement playing PS3 or at the piano writing a song or on the deck reading a book. What is that? A desire to be surrounded by loved ones regardless of the circumstances or the quality of the company? I mean, it's all quality to me. Even if we're bored, arguing or grieving I still want them near. Is there a word for that?

Once they are gone, though, I'm fine. It's like the happy hostess inside of me miserably hangs her hat and retires to her room for another three months, leaving the self sufficient independent side of me free to run the business in her stead. I have to fully let go of Happy Hostess in order to function with Self Sufficient Independent for long periods of barren, empty time. Only when she comes back out of her room do I ever realize just how lonely I was without her.

Without them.

/hang hat